So alone</3

Hmm soo alone wut should i do
ive said this over and over again
im just plain threw my brother says i
stay bored but now i think hes right
i need to get out of the house for abit
but i just got bck,this bed is so lonely
listening to music and thinking will i ever
find my special one,the one i can call my own
and to be owned?
Time goes on tick by tick and theirs so may
things making me sick from friends, to family
even exs too trobleing decisions and yet still
aint shit to do im tired of thinking cuz the
memories we usually try to forget always come bck,
it gives me head-aches while they wash over my brain over
and over again its worse then novacane the pain it burns then
it freezes away, then when im done tossin and turnin i still cant find shit to do,just stare at a white wall,they say we all have a 6th scent but how is that when i have more im different in ways people dont understand they say im fuking crazy n walk away ive seen em come and go every shape color and size ive chilled with freaks at the gathering but theirs always a selecte few that you hang out with everyday, smoke, chill,listen to music but they fade cuz its just ur memories fuking with your brain