Trauma

Trauma kills all that you know
It beats you down and leaves a hole.

A hollow empty that used to know peace.
A black hole that consumes all the good space

Orbiting nothing but fear and self loathing
Knowing you deserve absolutely nothing
 
Your heart is so cold and over protected
But its required to stay unaffected

These Walls are built to keep me held within
No door available to let love in

Because love is weakness and that we forbid.
No love, no joy, no peace, no happiness.

Just Hollowed out hearts, almost cavernous.
Consuming everything in its path,
Until nothing is left but my own self wrath.

Denying access to save mine own soul
From being a part of your wretched control

Keeping everyone always at an arm's distance
Holding steady to my own resistance

Undertand It's not that I don't want you there
It's not even that I don't care

Just I've been hurt so many times
I cant let you past these walls of mine

My rules are clear and ever standing
The walls are solid and ever expanding.

I stand alone secure behind my fortress
Knowing no one will ever be allowed access.

No access to this damaged heart
Not to hurt, or cut or tear it apart

Yes, It lonely behind my shield
But it's far better than to feel

Feel the pain, agony and betrayal
All of which could wound me fatal.

Its lonely, its scary, and ever so dark
But, like I said.... trauma leaves it's very own mark.