My Perfect plan worked so good it ended being  my downfall

I fucking stink like cold sweat and rain
The pure stench cannot match my inner pain
Maybe its true what was written on my diagnosis  or maybe me trying  to get a social security check  worked  so good that now I'm starting to believe  its true  losing  focus
11 months  is all it took for my monthly  check  now going on ten years  
Lost all motivation  knowing checks in the mail  and feel real shitty when I hear someone who really  needs it saying  they have been waiting for years
Now I have my check and a reason  for people  to call the cops on me all the time
I'm not crazy  just a drug addict with all the good things for disability  on paper
Not a bad person  the cops  just  usually take me to the hospital  for evaluation than I have to walk back  home same old shit everytime only people  who feel bad for me is the cop that is seeing  me cry as he puts me in cuffs
The back of a cop car filled with tears
Doing nothing wrong but what was heard with ears
Only thing told was I did no crime
Not one but two cops hospital ready escort one at each side afraid of going back to psych ward wishing for change
To my suprise the staff is wanting the best
Now I'm judgemental that I confess
GRATEFUL for a release and some awkward days
Hopefully next time ignorance is put a stray