Acrid

Don't feel bad for this cat
Gotta kill myself nine times just to get it right
I'm a fall out waiting to happen
A boy without a man's experience
And my ribbon says "do not open"
your scent stains my pillow
Deepening my sorrow
And this is more than I bargained for
Trading friends for trips to the hospital
Thanks for the memories, only wish they were sweeter
I can only blame my problems on the world for so long
Before it all comes crashing down
I keep telling myself
I don't need you
I'm not the type
Now I'm trying to forget you
I could've, would've died for you
Now resentment flares and burns
Like kidney stone piss
When I wake up
I hope to forget that I hate you more than you notice
The only one suicidal here is me
We had a good run
I'll admit
Like fireworks in July
But I'll miss the smell of your smoke
Acrid bite
The sweetness never lasts
Write me off and give up on me
Because this is the last time I'm looking back at you
I don't know where I'm going
But I'm not coming home