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As long as I can
The question is in me, it is so strong
Can this, my good life last, if so, how long?
What is my motivation to go on?
Have I become
A selfish man?
So I sat down and did something
Now a portion of my money goes
Towards free education and development for those in need
And it has lifted a burden from my heart
For now when I'm in pain, feel sorrow start
I can remember that somewhere, some day this month
Someone can learn because I gave this money to this cause
Even if it's just a day, an hour
This knowledge has tremendous power
To lift me of the floor
But then the question comes again: How long?
The fear that it will end
But I stop the descend
By looking in the mirror
By there seeing a joyful man
For the answer to "how long?" is simple
It is not a timeframe, it is not a date
It's simply this:
As long as I can
Can this, my good life last, if so, how long?
What is my motivation to go on?
Have I become
A selfish man?
So I sat down and did something
Now a portion of my money goes
Towards free education and development for those in need
And it has lifted a burden from my heart
For now when I'm in pain, feel sorrow start
I can remember that somewhere, some day this month
Someone can learn because I gave this money to this cause
Even if it's just a day, an hour
This knowledge has tremendous power
To lift me of the floor
But then the question comes again: How long?
The fear that it will end
But I stop the descend
By looking in the mirror
By there seeing a joyful man
For the answer to "how long?" is simple
It is not a timeframe, it is not a date
It's simply this:
As long as I can
Published 4th Mar 2021
Author's Note
I have no family to take care of yet, but I realised this doesn't mean I can't contribute something positive to the world. Knowing I do this more than I used to now, having the goal of keeping those contributions going out every month gives me an added motivation both for my job and to take care of myself better. Although the illness that led me to take this step and have this insight sucked, it taught me something.
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4th Mar 2021 9:36pm
There must be something in the air at the moment when it comes to hope. I found myself writing about it earlier also.
I think that we all have something positive to contribute to the world even if we think that we don’t. Sometimes it takes a a little while to see the bigger picture, but hopefully we will with time.
I really liked the introspection in this piece. Thank you for sharing.
-M
I think that we all have something positive to contribute to the world even if we think that we don’t. Sometimes it takes a a little while to see the bigger picture, but hopefully we will with time.
I really liked the introspection in this piece. Thank you for sharing.
-M
