hunger

the all consuming hunger
that's taken over her
she stopped eating
because she had a hunger, a desire
to be thin
to fit society's expectations
but her hunger caused physical hunger
and unhealthy malnourishment
 
the distaste for high calories
the gum chewing for avoidance
the newfound love for diet soda
 
when she feels guilty for eating  
she exercises past the breaking point
when the number on the scale is to high
she inflicts herself with cuts
that turn to ugly scars, for punishment  
 
145...142...140
138...136...137
140...141...142
135...132...130
 
and eventually, 120  
 
she knows starvation and malnutrition
are not healthy methods
and that it's damaging her inside and out
but she can't stop the spiral
and the voices telling her to continue
 
eventually all that will be left of her
 
is skin and bones
 
but as long as that number is low enough
she doesn't care about the rest of it