My Fucked up Head

Fucking shit inside my head
Racing thoughts that never end
Reigning storm of negativity
If you could only hear what it says to me
A constant barrage of hate and disgust
Telling me I’m not good enough
No success or love will come my way
How could they when I am this way
No one understands how hard it is to face the day
When constantly you feel this way
I don’t understand why I exist
Only to spend each day feeling like this
Everyday I fight a secret war that rocks me to my very core
Inside I scream and cry and pray for relief
But alas this shit is a fucking joy thief
I slap on a smile and crack a joke
Just to ensure no one knows about the fucking shit inside my head