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brenda
I am disjointed and awkward
my sideways smile is uneasy and tentative
blue searching souls of the restless for understanding
if you ask me how I'm doing I will lie
it seems I lie a lot
portions of me are deeply hidden
I often wonder where my soul has gone
the me I know that the world knows
my voice sounds the same
but my inner voice has changed
i listen intently to her, this stranger
I can't reconcile this is a part of me
a side of me I'm more comfortable with
I talk with our creator
he tells me they are varying sides of me
his concern is...I keep the truth of me hidden
way down deep so deep I think I've lost myself
the key I think is learning how to be the woman I am
the genuine article more and less what others expect
it's difficult reconciling one's truths
and being warrior enough to speak them
Published 24th Feb 2021
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24th Feb 2021 2:59pm
24th Feb 2021 7:05pm
My mom's favorite expressionism was "do the best you can"
She said it mostly when she was exasperated with the world or things around her. She was also a perfectionist and hardly ever wrong, which infuriated everyone but we took it and her in our good graces. We kidded her a lot about it too. I'm not sure she was laughing with us but she often had a wry sly smile when we teased her.
The point of my story is, as we age our relevance comes into question in a variety of ways, you know how I feel about you and your writing. You will always be a beacon of truth and vivid story telling that we all can walk in.
I say be proud and forthright, do the best you can and keep swinging for the fences !!
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She said it mostly when she was exasperated with the world or things around her. She was also a perfectionist and hardly ever wrong, which infuriated everyone but we took it and her in our good graces. We kidded her a lot about it too. I'm not sure she was laughing with us but she often had a wry sly smile when we teased her.
The point of my story is, as we age our relevance comes into question in a variety of ways, you know how I feel about you and your writing. You will always be a beacon of truth and vivid story telling that we all can walk in.
I say be proud and forthright, do the best you can and keep swinging for the fences !!
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24th Feb 2021 7:08pm
thank you dearest Poet for sharing your own personal experiences with me I do the best I can given any given day as you know... I appreciate deeply your continued support even when i am less than me ❤
Anonymous
24th Feb 2021 6:45pm
Yes.
24th Feb 2021 7:08pm
Brenda, I truly admire you for sharing this courageous and self reflective write.
Your vulnerable self poetry of peccadilloes is strangely endearing to me.
I find your raw emotionally expressed imperfections of self through poetry to expose your true human perfection.
A true reveal of who you are in reality,
in spite of those inner struggles that confront you.
I see your suppressed vulnerabilities not as lies,
but as a protective mechanism, to keep those around you comforted and happy at your expense.
And your quest to do you is a wonderful journey to bare witness to.......
I would love to hang with you over beers because your worth is priceless.
You are the genuine article indeed my dear friend.
There is no mistaken that you are a special talent Brenda!
......hahaha, I just realized that this is the first time I used your name in a response to your Poetic Brilliance, LOL.
Your vulnerable self poetry of peccadilloes is strangely endearing to me.
I find your raw emotionally expressed imperfections of self through poetry to expose your true human perfection.
A true reveal of who you are in reality,
in spite of those inner struggles that confront you.
I see your suppressed vulnerabilities not as lies,
but as a protective mechanism, to keep those around you comforted and happy at your expense.
And your quest to do you is a wonderful journey to bare witness to.......
I would love to hang with you over beers because your worth is priceless.
You are the genuine article indeed my dear friend.
There is no mistaken that you are a special talent Brenda!
......hahaha, I just realized that this is the first time I used your name in a response to your Poetic Brilliance, LOL.
27th Feb 2021 4:37pm
good morning dearest poet you have me smiling from the love you've shown me today... yes I suppose you are right I do that to make those around me happy...I'm grateful to you all for letting me reveal myself here in my entirety it is a great release to me...I would love to hang with you it would be very interesting... thank you for your heart you are very kind ❤
2nd Mar 2021 6:59pm
I loved the "I talk with our creator" stanza, it's so sincerely and reflective knowing that our purpose is always striving to be better and spread kindness
Great poem.
Great poem.
