set you free (come back to me)

you must know your silence hurts  
just as i know it’s what we need    
i cannot reasonably expect you to wait    
for all three of me to be in sync      
and while i get my shit together    
i will hope that i impress you for a change    
     
you must know i was thinking of you    
every time i fucked someone else    
you must know not one can stand next to you    
i was afraid of my own jealousy      
and not afraid enough of yours  
this may make you laugh: at times
it wasn’t me 


 
i did wrong, as i do, as we do    
i will not ask you to be sorry for me    
     
when you asked me    
in the kebab shop    
if i would be angry    
if you dated someone      
else      
     
you must have known my no was not simple    
that it was the reason i walked out    
and all night my eyes flooded quietly      
yet in the morning i stayed a while      
and when you claimed to have no memory    
i knew it was to save my (ruined) pride    
     
do you think you have cut me loose    
i don’t think you can do it      
i have tied myself too tightly    
you must know that wherever i go    
i will be writing to you      
words you may never see    
     
you must know that this is all for you.    
i strive to make you know my worth    
i undertake the feats of Hercules      
to bring you orange juice and vodka    
and i vow to be stronger next time    
     
until you can safely choose me