The burden of love

Emotions control the life of a desperate man,
They keep playing with my head, while i try to sleep
Love at first, after the fear, ending with regret,
While constant change keeps hunting my dream

It's not easy to understand,
A broken heart as a friend
It's like a rubik's cube without the colors,
A grey maze that meets no others,
Trying to solve a puzzle, without a picture

Love becomes a burden in this place
A happy face becomes a mask you'll have to make,
Right when you start feeling, your hope begins to fade,
And for every plan that Love would make, there is an excuse to Hate

I hate myself for being too naive, too keen,
Wondering about a situation that was never real,
My heart attaches itself too easily, obsessing for hours
My heart only loves the scent of forbidden flowers

I decided to kill my heart, after all the lost love,
Started hiding in a happy persona,
Making funny jokes over and over,
But now I'm so messed up, I'm laughing at my broken heart

Sometines I feel like It's a never ending circle
A Rose covered, endless hellhole
For others a warming fire, for me a burning candle

Once i approached this darkness,
It tries to eat me ever since,
I find myself helpless facing all my sins.
Living in this darkness helped me see the honest heart,
My puishment since then is the burden of love