Miss Misery/ Deranged Lust

In a fucked up world,
Surrounded by false promises and lies.
Pain is all you'll see in my eyes.
Search I have, yet again I fail.
Nothing can be done, it's too late.
Consumed by betrayal.


Silence...not a sound..
Thoughts within my own mind,
Have me trapped, I am bound.
Emotions violently rupture through me like a  hurricane.
Anxiety warps, eroding it all away.

Drowning in the darkness, no hope in sight.
For all that is pure burns away with the light.
The dark has become a solace,
Soothing and alleviating the aches.
My own familiar tranquil space.

Everlasting shadows cast over me.
Misery and Agony such sweet sadistic remedies.
An addiction for afliction cant seem to get enough.
Pain, a hunger, for which I lust.
No one can heal me. Can't be revived.
Lost within my thoughts, insanity eats me alive.

Anguish and despair grasp on tight
Groping and caressing me
Each and every night.
No longer who I was, I'll never be the same.
Maliciously mutilate the girl I used to be.
This Remedy I beseech.

Torment so satisfactory.
Steady. My Serenity.
Blood stained bliss.
Submissive to you always,
Never to resist.
Obediently receive your discipline.

When the rush subsides,
Down down down
You're there to reconcile.
Arousal so pure and Devine.
Hold me once again. Please make it hurt
Captivating lacerations.
Asphyxiation, such relief.
Annihilate and infiltrate, make me fucking bleed.
I long for your poison. I long for the rush.
Your lush toxic touch.
Don't make me wait baby,I know you need me too.
Make me feel the dark things deep within,
The things that destroy you.
My sweet, darling, demented virtue.