Let me fall

I let myself down
And did what I shouldn't
I broke all my promises
But was it worth it?
For risk of death or minor pain
I....I....can't come to say it
I'm weak yes I'm aware
But I'm only human
This life burdens me so
I try to bend but end up breaking
I try to slow my breathing
Fuck why haven't I stopped shaking?!
It was just a few cuts
Nothing major at best
When they all scar up
They'll be like the rest
Then why am I so worried
Of you finding out
Well I'm sorry boy in the mirror
But I refuse to let you out