Why ?

Why on earth is this happening? Please God not again. ..
I keep playing this same game, and I know I can't win.  
I'm so sad and so broken and so empty inside.
I dont know how to fix this,
Not with my wounded pride.
See I talk a good game , and i pretend I'm so tough .
But on the inside I'm fragile and man enough is enough.
Its past time to say fuck it ...
To get up and move on.  
To let go of the dumb shit  .
So this pain will be gone.
This isnt my first time.
It's for sure not my last.
I'm remembering the memories,
That creep up from the past .
I hear the echoes of laughter  and now you made me smile.
And how I truly felt happy.  
For just that  little while.
But see fate was just teasing , it was all just a joke.  
My spirits is shattered and my hearts again broke.  
And all alone I'm still standing,
Once again I played the fool.
I just dont understand it.  Why is life just so cruel?
Can I just have one moment,  could you give me one chance?]
I just want to be  wanted.  With
Passion , romance.  
I just want to feel needed.   And like I really belong ...
I can't stand this weakness but its hard to be strong.  .
So why on earth did this happen....why me again. ?
I can't win for losing..again and again. ..