i feel everything

i can't shut off my mind
i cant close all my emotions
i forgive you time after time even though you are not kind
its like were from two different oceans

you wished that i was cold like you
i question how do you do it to turn off everything
to not care it seems like something cool
you told me that its not i would hate to feel nothing

i have tried to close up to not love
it doesn't work for me you see
even when i have had enough
it makes me feel free

i have to feel
i need the pain
to know that its real
I've lost so much but i have more to gain