Everywhere to behold

Reminding myself the blessings are
bountiful and everywhere to behold..
if I'm not too busy scolding within
its plain to see even through the veils
 of misery so easily blinding thee..

I wanna remember
the love and all the blessings
and daily gifts I receive..

Most of the time my focus isn't on this
thus I enter such hopeless fits
letting carelessness consume without fighting back without truly committing to change.

"Ain't no heaven ain't no burning hell" but damn do I seem to dwell in both..

Harder to laugh,
 less energy to love,
no path pursued, the blues ensue..
But I come back to my words
 and the words of others reminding me the blessings are bountiful and everywhere to behold, try not to remain so cold secluded in selfishness
leaving my soul scolding in silence..
rise defiantly out of this depression
 to see your connection to each
cosmic expression.. in each battle
 a lesson no room for second guessing,
don't roam while stressing and desperate, get absorbed
in the moment to moment celebration, "enjoy yourself that's all you can do"
 stay true to what you desire to do and experience..