Top Tier Low Life

Yesterday seems so far away
Or so they claim to say
But it still holds my pain
So clear before it reigns

The beetles gnawing at the roots
Cut me at my seems
Until i fill this nestled nook
With what i bleed

Like an undercurrent in tow
An unseen seethe
That festers beyond deep
And brings me to my stiffened knees

Such a prayer to be lost
Such a dare to be away
Invisible in the open
Vulnerability slain

Living within a prison
Life sentence
Souled sentience
Unworth mention

Shall we dance, for here i dip
Spiralling out without substance
No drugs to drown out my flow
Can't seem to break the pattern again
Top shelf in a life so low

Can't seem to crawl back to the gutter
For it's a place i never left
Can't seem to pull myself together
Can't just scrape by, i don't deserve this.

Any of it

Run the streets
In youth & free
All of that's lost

Each day in hurry
To forget my worries
That's all gone

So now i sit with them more than i could ever imagine
Retracing each step with not knowing what has happened

Black it all out