"free"

  
 
     
  I want to leave this body so bad.... detached yet attached to this weight of a place; I continue to relapse;  
   
   
  my smiles and laughs, are forced; forever till I die, I'm trapped; words are like splinters to the flesh for sure, whether or not they're ignored  
   
   
I only seek to escape, the present as well as the past; nerves forever at its last; most see colors of a flag, I see white, grey, and black....  
   
   
 you see people; I see "porcupines" with or without the mask; 6 ft is not too much to ask; it hasn't done me well to interact....  
   
   
I don't believe in the "rules"; it's all just shattered glass; depression I am feeling because I see no peaceful paths....


told to stay healthy in this damaging place; where everything and everyone sooner or later deteriorates....


a vicious cycle nearly impossible to "escape"; apathy overpowers the empathy in my heart; yet I'm never filled with hate....


I just want to forever "escape" this place that feels so fake; I've been reached my limit of how much I could take....