the profoundness of ache

how can i convey the current  
the rush of electrons through my wire  
the amplitude of my need  

often mistaken for the selfishness of pleasure  
the claws of want  
the devouring of erotic talismans  
fermenting in the male belly  
this is not what i mean  
 
unresolved arousal  
arousal without end  
is an offering  
a wafer of sacrifice  
to enjoy slowly upon the tongue of a relishing witness  
it is a succumbing of the organism of self  
to hum and quake without relief  
to squash thought  
into the crevices of deep mines  
that fill darkened caverns  
with the moans of prey  
 
persistent  
 
till one aches  
with erupting reptilian impulse  
a mind cage without escape  
an oubliette  
a dungeon of never  
till time crawls naked  
to the tip of stilettos  
prancing joyfully  
with the staccato of forgetfulness  
and the sadistic caress of absence  
swallowing the perpetual answer of ‘no’