Not Gonna Lie

I'm not gonna lie,
It's hard to try like you me told to,
When even the morning doesn't wanna greet you,
I'm not gonna lie,
I could end it all right now,
But that wouldn't be the best way out,
I'm not fearing anything anymore,
Just hoping to do better then before,
 
When I wake up,
And everything seems okay,
Then I look up,
And see I'm in the same place,
With the same face,
I just tried to change,
When I look down,
And everything seems so small,
Then I look out,
And everything hits me harder then before,
 
I can't wait,
To change my outfit,
I can't wait,
To change the outlet,
 
I'm not gonna lie,
It's hard to try like you me told to,
When even the morning doesn't wanna greet you,
I'm not gonna lie,
I could end it all right now,
But that wouldn't be the best way out,
I'm not fearing anything anymore,
Just hoping to do better then before,
 
The best instrument I have in my room,
Is the voice behind both of my truths,
The best writing pen I have in my room,
Is the voice telling me to keep trying to...
I can't entertain myself like this,
I can't portray myself like it doesn't hurt anymore,
That it doesn't hurt more,
 
I can't wait,
To change my outfit,
I can't wait,
To change the outlet,
 
I'm not gonna lie,
It's hard to try like you me told to,
When even the morning doesn't wanna greet you,
I'm not gonna lie,
I could end it all right now,
But that wouldn't be the best way out,
I'm not fearing anything anymore,
Just hoping to do better then before,
 
"Does she love you?"
No,
"Do they need you?"
No,
"Don't rely on them"
I know,
 
I'm not gonna lie,
It's hard to try like you me told to,
When even the morning doesn't wanna greet you,
I'm not gonna lie,
I could end it all right now,
But that wouldn't be the best way out,
I'm not fearing anything anymore,
Just hoping to do better then before,
 
I'm not gonna lie,
It's hard to say goodbye,
I'm not gonna lie,
I don't plan on saying goodnight,