Sleep

I can't imagine ever living a life  
Where I'd be scared of not waking up  
The delicious sleep  
The sanctity presented in a tiny pill.  

My thoughts so real  
That chase and hound me  
When i lay in the dead of night  
Make me seek refuge  
In pharmaceuticals  
They offer some respite  
From my own mind.  
 
Because my biggest foe is time,  
Betwixt the hours that pass  
From dusk till dawn,  
And im awake and on my own,  
But feel most at home.  
 
Like a vampire;  
Roaming and alone.  
Insomnia in all my loneliness  
Penetrates, making me stone.  
 
I lay there waiting  
For the fuzzy haze  
To hit me, full effect.  
It feels I haven't shut my eyes for days  
My pupils large, and now dilated  
I can taste it, its metallic  
And i know preparing me,  
For the moment ive wanted  
For forever.  
To just shut my eyes and sleep.