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Go Ahead, Make Me
Go ahead,
make me cry again.
Hundreds of miles away, I cry.
I said your name, I cried.
I tried to explain, I cried.
Years away and I cry.
How far do I have to run
to outrun the memories of you?
How far until the compulsion to talk about "a friend I once knew" doesn't hurt like a stab in my heart?
How many band-aids do I have to find,
only to painfully rip them off?
No one will ever be you!
Some scars only look healed.
Some scars only feel healed.
Some scars never really heal.
FUCK!
I'll always flipping love you.
make me cry again.
Hundreds of miles away, I cry.
I said your name, I cried.
I tried to explain, I cried.
Years away and I cry.
How far do I have to run
to outrun the memories of you?
How far until the compulsion to talk about "a friend I once knew" doesn't hurt like a stab in my heart?
How many band-aids do I have to find,
only to painfully rip them off?
No one will ever be you!
Some scars only look healed.
Some scars only feel healed.
Some scars never really heal.
FUCK!
I'll always flipping love you.
Published 13th Oct 2020
| Edited 21st Mar 2024
Author's Note
Sorry for the language.
This writing was more of a needed expression of hard to process feelings more than a finely crafted poetry piece.
The truth is:
I dont know if I would want to try again, that's not what still hurts...that's the only thing that comforts.
It's knowing what was lost, it's knowing everything changes, it's the impossible high bar that got set.
https://youtu.be/vfvRXoZave0
This writing was more of a needed expression of hard to process feelings more than a finely crafted poetry piece.
The truth is:
I dont know if I would want to try again, that's not what still hurts...that's the only thing that comforts.
It's knowing what was lost, it's knowing everything changes, it's the impossible high bar that got set.
https://youtu.be/vfvRXoZave0
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13th Oct 2020 4:19am
13th Oct 2020 7:04am
13th Oct 2020 4:30am
This is a beautiful piece full of emotions and true some scars never heal, Tight
13th Oct 2020 7:18am
Thanks, I_IS_Me.
That is very true, some may never heal. ❤
Our scars may not be pretty but, at least, they remind us that we lived, I'm thankful for that. 🙂
That is very true, some may never heal. ❤
Our scars may not be pretty but, at least, they remind us that we lived, I'm thankful for that. 🙂
13th Oct 2020 12:45pm
25th Oct 2020 9:06pm
Thank you, buddakitty ❤
Equal and opposite reactions that must be, perhaps that is how nature makes its way back to net zero. *sigh*
Equal and opposite reactions that must be, perhaps that is how nature makes its way back to net zero. *sigh*
14th Oct 2020 3:39am
This hurts my heart. *Hugs* I had and lost someone once and I imagine her feeling just like this or perhaps she's forgotten me. This life is difficult. I hope you heal.
14th Oct 2020 5:02am
Thanks for the hugs!
*Hugs back to you*
Isn't it strange how it comes and goes unexpectedly? To me, that is the worst.
Usually, life goes on as normally as any other, it is good and has been very kind to me. It's probably selfish to even think of/consider wanting more: I'm alive and healthy, I have my family, I have a safe & comfortable home, and a great community of people that support me with so many opportunities...while so many others have very little. It's nothing more than selfish. 💔
I think the biggest issue I think has been comparing new friends with old friends, it's not fair to anyone. I didn't realize I was still doing it until the day I wrote this.
Probably should have left the topic unsaid, then I wouldn't have felt like this at that moment.
I hope your person is okay, too, I wish her all the comfort she needs (and same for you). Life gives us so many lessons, I am thankful for all of them, even the hard ones. 😔
❤❤❤❤
*Hugs back to you*
Isn't it strange how it comes and goes unexpectedly? To me, that is the worst.
Usually, life goes on as normally as any other, it is good and has been very kind to me. It's probably selfish to even think of/consider wanting more: I'm alive and healthy, I have my family, I have a safe & comfortable home, and a great community of people that support me with so many opportunities...while so many others have very little. It's nothing more than selfish. 💔
I think the biggest issue I think has been comparing new friends with old friends, it's not fair to anyone. I didn't realize I was still doing it until the day I wrote this.
Probably should have left the topic unsaid, then I wouldn't have felt like this at that moment.
I hope your person is okay, too, I wish her all the comfort she needs (and same for you). Life gives us so many lessons, I am thankful for all of them, even the hard ones. 😔
❤❤❤❤
15th Oct 2020 4:24am
I don't think it's selfish. The writing is our safe space to frame emotions, events, circumstances, choices, losses, hopes, fears, everything. Framing it helps us to not feel overwhelmed, and hopefully, begin moving past it.
Thank you. I appreciate you.
Thank you. I appreciate you.
15th Oct 2020 1:56pm
25th Oct 2020 9:07pm
23rd Oct 2020 6:40am
"How far do I have to run
to outrun the memories of you?" this line certainly poses the question many of us have faced at one point in our lives when it comes to dealing with matters of the heart. It certainly is tough to be at the crossroads, feeling being pulled back by history and memories, unsure of how big that void can be..
Beautifully written.
to outrun the memories of you?" this line certainly poses the question many of us have faced at one point in our lives when it comes to dealing with matters of the heart. It certainly is tough to be at the crossroads, feeling being pulled back by history and memories, unsure of how big that void can be..
Beautifully written.
25th Oct 2020 9:09pm
Certainly is.
And the void can be so massive that it is seen and felt for longer than we want it to.
Thank you, wallyroo. ❤❤❤❤
And the void can be so massive that it is seen and felt for longer than we want it to.
Thank you, wallyroo. ❤❤❤❤
27th Oct 2020 1:22pm
Oh.... I felt every word of this. Yes, even the frustration at the end! I know this exact place very well. ❤
Loved the song too - thanks for sharing that.
Loved the song too - thanks for sharing that.
