Great Communications, Vol: 79.3 Auto'bio'graphic-like

dkzksaxxas_DanielX (DadaDoggyDannyKozakSaxfn)
- Edited Yesterday 11:11amYesterday 10:53am
originally written maybe 8-9 wks ago in response to a comment by dear Ahavati
 
Hope yr not talkin'bout me. (just kiddin).  
I'm not so optimistic as you re: our individual efforts to help the collective human species to turn it's nasty karma around. Too many eons of fucking things up. Extinction is the only "solution".  ( O, blasphemer ! )
Karma is a collective-species issue, not an individual reward-punishment system that ego tells us it is. No way. Just gotta do-the-right-thing one day at a time WITHOUT any mind toward fulfillment of ANY human expectation. Especially your own.  
 You heard it here first, super evolved being that Iyam! Ha! The joker "fool" knows more than even he knows he knows. Figger that out. Arf!  oh, blessed Dada!  
    
Meanwhile, shame on anyone who's putting burrs on yr saddle, or under it, whatever cowboy allusion to irritation be appropriate.    
    
The doc told my sister that essentially I am "dead man (not) walking".....so better get yr "piece" of me whilst you can. You and JB take a Florida vacation & visit. The window of such an opportunity is shrinking. Cmon, say: "yeah, Kozak. Yr gonna outlive us all." Right, you betcha. I'm on house arrest for the forsee'able future. I guess The Plague would complicate such plans. My brother is no socialite, by any means, and like Hank said "I'm so lonesome I could cry." and I do....everyday. Being on this house arrest is a big step more difficult than "shelter in place". I marvel that i have enough will to live that I survived. When i was in my coma, the medical experts told my sibs "this guy is a goner". So what do I do.....unconsciously pull out my intabation (sp?) tube, & get up stumbling away from fckn coma. Within 2 days, you wouldn't know anything had happened. I didn't know anything had happened, & was wondering how i had gotten so hoarse. A week later sis tells me what went down. All i could say was ":Y'gotta be kiddin'" about 20 times.  
I really think I don't want to live anymore. Now, along with plague, the country is burning over a 20 dolla bill. Ol'George had no idea he was about to become the most famous corpse that USA has seen.    
    I have NO palpable "future". Lord, let me go,so's I can visit my sweet dead Leah (and George)..........i don'know how long i can "live" like this.  
   Again....shame on your tormentors.  Yes. Gotta try to ignore them.  
      Sorry for being such a bummer.  
Golly, speakin' of bummer. Curious  to see how the virus stats are going to be effected by the dozens of bonfire gatherings we've had this week, (and beyond.).   Man, that could be some SERIOUS shit. Yeah. Open all the bars, goddamn'it!
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"Enjoy yourSelf.
Enjoy yourSelf.
It's later than you think"
----great old song.