Exasperation

Boiling lava erupting out of a volcano...
As steam pierces through the top of my head my fingers balled up into a fist and I clenched my teeth grinding them against each other.
I gazed at the floor, hoping and praying for it to open up and take me into it.
How can a person be so cruel? Taking whatever power is left in me just to make you feel good about you...
As one door closes and one reopens, you barricade it with your bullshit, just to suffer me and grin doing so.
No one knows the color of my blood or heart after enduring these torture you bestow unto me. Day and night, night and day I pray until my knees bled for deliverance... I've cried aloud and in silence but nothing happens...no one hears it or sees me.