Night Time Prayer

I fall to my knees, begging the lord please.
I know this isn’t what you had in stored for me. All your signs I ignored.
I come to you tonight to ask, can you guide me toward the right path?
I’m having trouble seeing the light, happiness seems out of sight.
I’m not doing alright. I need someone to hold me tight.
I just want to succeed, but I’m afraid I don’t know how to proceed.
It’s been more than a decade since I really prayed, I’m sorry I strayed.
I know it’s delayed. I’m feeling frayed,
every breath cuts like razor blades as the depression invades.
Here’s my confession,
always held onto all my aggression, gave off the wrong impression,
 never was good at expressing what I was feeling, it felt to revealing,
thought I could do my own self healing.
 It’s unreal, all the pain I feel…. So Jesus please take the wheel.