grasshopper

 
god I'm sad I don't what to do with my feelings
they're screaming at me and all I can do is cringe
curl into a ball and sleep

still into my dreams, my feelings enter
they personify themselves
appearing as people they talk to me
I can't get away from them
and yet I don't know how to deal with them

I feel helpless to control my future
I've made bad choices that can't be rectified
I can say my penance to god
but that won't take my sin away

I'm losing the battle
there's no place left to hide
it's eating me alive