Your Loss

It is like a huge part of me left when you were
On your way out the door. I know I could have
Asked you to stay just for one more second, but

It would have been selfish. My hazy and blurry
Vision prevented me from fixing the main valve
Heading right to my heart. I would always shut

Off in the hopes of letting my big heart fully heal.
I thought I was really ready for your sudden loss,
But my head and heart were not fully prepared

For your quick departure. What I wanted to feel
Was different than all the sunshine and the gloss
After the pain disappeared completely. I bared

All my soul’s deepest secrets, wishing I could be
More cold and distant from the fond memories,
But I was not quite ready to be saying goodbye to

The person I loved forever and who I would see
In my future life. We all get lost in the remedies
To ease the emptiness, but as we go through

Even the darkest of nights, the only remedy I
Might need is to let all the tears become dry.