Waiting

Why? Why is it that when you said you'd never leave
All I could do was believe
Believe and hope you'd keep your word
Now my life seems so blurred
You up and left

I wish you could feel the pain in my chest
I gave it my best, I confess
Most times thinking of you has led to distress
I feel useless, misused, emotionally abused
You left my heart bruised

YOU LEFT ME
How could you do that to me?
You promised then abandoned me!
You were all I had
You were what kept me breathing
I often wish to be dead and maybe then
You'd care again

My happiness took years to regain
You put me through torture and pain
I worried for you didn't even know if you were alive
Yet still, I pushed on and I tried
There were so many nights I'd break down and cry

Sometimes those tears do come and sting my eyes
I fucking miss you, I miss my big brother
Who now lies in the arms of another
You were my one and only big brother
Am I supposed to be happy?

You left a man, came back a woman
Didn't warn me or tell in advanced
Just what you had planned.
The last thing you said before you disappeared
are engraved in my soul.
You told me I'd always be your little sister

Are you having fun playing twister?
That's what you do with my heart when you do this shit
Why doesn't it ever click, will I ever be missed?
For now, I'll just keep cutting my wrists
You better fucking believe that I'm pissed
But I'll continue to hurt
And keep
Waiting... Waiting... Just waiting

For you to return