Waiting for Karma

How do you know you hate someone?  
I'm not sure, maybe I'm the dumb one
All I know is what I know
Is that I know, more than I show  

You made me cry
You made me lie
I've heard stories of karma  
The sweet revenge  
The dark avenge  

Pay for every tear I shed
Pay for wrists stained in red
Pay for the nice words I was forced to say
Pay for the blood which you carelessly betray

I want to see you hurt like you hurt me
Bleeding scars only the heart can see
Forever reminded this nightmare real  
Mixed with scars that time will heal  
Pain that lurks in the back of the mind  
Attacking at random from behind

Crying into my sleeves so no one will hear
Curled in a ball that traps in my fear  
I can't breathe and panic creeps in  
Only cool metal calms as it splits skin  

I wish for you to feel all these things I feel  
My pain is an invisible nightmare made real  
I want revenge
I want payment  
I want karma
Is this hate?
If so, then I hate you brother