Papa

Everytime I close my eyes
I see a series of memories —
Painful ones
There are times that I was able to forget
But then i am all alone, eyes closed
It hits me, a million times
 
He was crying, sitting on the ambulance floor
He looked miserable
They took him in, i started crying
I was scared, I was and still am
 
I can't help but cry, he was too
But he told me in pain
That i shouldn't be scared, that he's okay
When clearly he was not
 
I was all alone
He was trying to calm me down
When he himself was scared
They were questioning him
Asking if he's acting
 
How bullshit they were
They delayed his treatment
And they have the guts to question
I am mad, to all of them
 
For hurting papa, my father
For giving him so much pain
So much pain, that killed him
They killed him.