Sleep

I can’t sleep
But I need to get away
I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts
I don’t want to let them blanket me and never let me go
I’m so empty
I’m pretty sure by now you know
I’m so tired
I guess that’s just how I’m wired
I know that I have work to do
But I just can’t see it through
God, I’m so tired
I don’t really feel awake
Awake is full of color
And I’m a large gray painting
Actually, not gray
I’m even duller
I’m so empty inside I’m not sure I’m alive
The only way I know I’m awake
Is become my thoughts won’t let me be
They are racing around my head
So exhausting
I can’t leave my bed
I just want them to go away
They’ve stolen all my energy
My light is glowing, barely
I just want to sleep
I want relief
I want a break
I’m so numb, I don’t think I count as awake
Barely moving
But a battle I am losing
Against the awake