How I feel (another unfinished start )!

I've thought about this letter,
And the words I long to write.
I'm so TROUBLED with confusion,
I can hardly sleep at night.  
Cuz here is where I fear a change,
And man change can be tough.  
But alas the plot doth thicken,
Cuz I think I've had enough.
But I don't want it to be over .
Not when you are all I've got.  
And truthfully let's face it ,...
The sex is really hot.  
I really want to call you ,
Hear your voice and kinda smile.
I wish that i could hold you close
For just a little while.
Its just so very crazy,
Just how you make me feel.
I keep pinching myself painfully,
Just to make sure that it's real..
Cuz you see when life gets heavy,
And starts to feel like death,
When I feel like I am drowning
And I just need to catch my breath.
Suddenly I see you, I touch you
And your there.  
It's like the fogs been lifted , and
I can finally breathe fresh air.
See I  think of you so easily,
A thousand times a day.  
And when your sleeping next to me ,
I lie awake and pray.
  I pray somehow, I touch your heart .
And you think of me and smile. .
I pray the night drags slowly,
Soi can be with you awhile.
I'm not sure how we got here
But to me it seems so cruel,
I bet fate is somewhere laughing
Cuz once again I've played the fool.  
God placed you in my life you see
And quickly you became, ....
A beacon in my darkest night and
Sunshine thru the rain.