A mess of a turd.

I take heartache like a Bitch.
I seem more like a fucking chump as each day goes by with her on my mind.

Heart torn to bits.
I ain't shit,
Why the fuck would anyone love Ya.
Your family try you like trash.
So you ditch them and you're out on your ass.

Burning bridges,
I can't find solace in drugs and bitches.
I want to kill this feeling,
Of feeling for ya.
They buckle me down to my knees.
Maybe this buckle can buckle me down to perdition.

Sobriety lives,
My humanity dies,
Either way my suicide should be no surprise.

How will he go?
Foot to the floor,
No keys in ignition.
I'm all out out of my flame.

All out of *******
Nose bleeds tells tales
Of when I was out of my lane,
Bloody sheets set sail.
Drip
Out of my brains,
Never out of this pain,

I just want out of this game,

5 years later,
and the pain never change.

White girl so swell,
my nose and heart won't tell.
Until I'm dead in my space,
Carcass planted by face.

If this was 2015 I'd bury my head In strippers and blow.
Strippers and blow!
Sheridan made me feel love.
The stripper and blow.
I got more love for hate when the drugs are gone.
But for then let's get down with some strippers and blow.

Now.
Reminisce,
about Sex in the whip,
She giving me tip,
I don't know her name,
Don't care about her pain,
I knew her for 2 minutes then she sucked my dick.


If get 88 eight balls,
I still wouldn't die today.
Stroke me out with her rejection,
Don't forget the sweet little lies.
Give me the attention so I can feel like  being loved is no surprise.
Shit hurts so much more with sober eyes.
Sober cries.
Thank God,
I'm already dead inside.
No life to look to as I run out of friends to confide.

Losing my mind,
Losing my soul,
Shawty killed a new flame and a fling for tomorrow.
Wasting my time,
Wasted my life.
Wasted myself,
Waiting on prime.

I passed up a good gal so I can be fooled by the lie in your eyes.

Another looking for love that can be true, and to you lil lady I am sorry  that it couldn't be you.
I'm just feeling like shit.
My mind in a twist,
She looked me in the eye as I gaze into the skies.
Blinded to her lies,
Today was a surprise.
Her admiration was nothing but a disguise.


My mental detrimental because I'm open to lies,
Open to cries,
So I'm open to ride,
Hit 90 on on the highway,
facing traffic,
Open to die.

2 eights of meanies,
Self loathing,
A dice,
Then I'm open to fly.
Oink.

I'm a sucker for love.
Glutton for punishment.
I can't even finish this shit because I'm at a point where I wanna cry again, and maybe try die to again.