For Neggy, my dog who passed away today

It hurts so much. It's heart-wrenching 😭
When I saw her dead I didn't know what to do. My heart, my arms, and my legs felt so weak. I can't walk and I just want to lay down and feel nothing. I wish I was dead too. I wish this day was just a dream. I wish I set her free last night 😭. We were playing that night. We were so happy. I didn't realize that that was the last hug and the last time I'll be able to see her. 😭 it's devastating 😭😭. I've never felt this kind of pain before. I just feel like I lost someone I really love. I want to feel nothing but this feeling is just overwhelming. I love her soooo much 😭 she didn't even reach 1 year.
I can't stop crying. I had memories with her wherever I go and that always reminds me of her. I love her 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭.
I know she's just a dog but, she's more than a dog for me. She's my baby 😭 I raised her, I took care of her. I loved her like my own child. 😭 now I don't what to do with her babies. I don't want them to live without a mother 😭 ))))))):


I'm so sorry. I can't keep this feeling for too long. It's killing me.  I know this is not a poem but I just want to vent 😭💔 im sorry ))):