Old habits for a new day

Self affliction some may say out of remission now healing up from the many incisions caused by the now questionable decisions of my past it ain't the same now, a pretty bad assumption that I wasnt able to function in the mess im starting to realize I perform better under stress as I digress further in life my perception is better understood gotta be on point like a blade can't lay in the shade any longer with indecision cuz with it lingers premonition later turned into reality if I slack an slumber today so few truths have remained diminished by the coldness towards one another so many relationships have suffered
time drives peoples away straying farther away till one day nothing will remain memories of the younger days now blown away