Numb

Oh my goodness! This is so emotional, and resonates so well with the situation I've been going through these past two weeks. I've been taking care of my ailing grandmother, and though I love her to bits, I get so little sleep, and everything she's been watching on TV has been so negative, and she panics every time I leave the room for more than one minute. I barely have the time to take anything other than a very light spongebath, and now I have stratched my eye in my sleep, think it's infected, and am trying to get a doctor's appointment. This whole thing has given me severe situational depression, to the point where I've been sitting in the same room at the dining room table behind my grandmother (in case she needs me) where I thought I would be working on my projects, but I've been sitting doing almost nothing due to lack of motivation, and I've been eating so little that I feel myself getting weaker by the day and I am afraid I won't be able to help her out of her chair soon. Thank the gods we will be getting an aid from 11:00 PM-7:00 AM to help her get in and out of bed all night while I get some sleep, a few times a week, starting tonight, and I'll get to go home tomorrow evening for a few days while my mom comes to help take care of my grandmother, and she is thinking about going into assisted living very soon. Sorry for spilling my guts like this, I just have so few people to say anything about this to, and your poem brought on the waterworks, it was very well written. :-)

I'm sorry to hear what you are going through at the moment. I hope things will get better soon. I wrote this poem under different circumstances to your own but the feelings were still the same. Writing this poem helped me in a certain situation as I was able to express feelings that I could not in other ways. Thank you for taking your time and reading my poem.

Very sad poem but you need to talk people and fight your way to happiness and light.  Keep on writing.