i wish you still loved me

my mind almost breaks
thinking about the way you love her
wondering how many times you've kissed her
dwelling on the thought of you being intimate with her
i feel it eating away at me
i don't want to love you right now
yet you're everything i want
and when you're mine
the only thing i can see is you with all of the other girls
you loved after me
and it shatters every piece of my soul
to know
that i am nothing more to you
than another girl to love