Dear God, PS.... I can never finish talking

Sometimes I wonder how come
spirituality has to rise from the muck
like a fish crawling out of the sea
just to breathe
 
I've noticed I'm pretty much an asshole
until reality flies straight at me
poop straight from a fan
 
then for some odd reason  
I'll clean it up for you AND me
...purposeful as can be
It's embarrassing!
 
and studies show religiosity  
is directly tied to personal  
Calamity! (Yes, with a capital "C")
 
Why is the best of us
tied to our suffering?