That’s alright chocolate eyes

You called me intoxicated
“Look, I like you”  
That’s what you said  
 
You don’t do this (you said)  
As you crawled into my bed  
And seeped into my head  
 
You called me sweetheart  
Words so soft like petals  
Sweet nothings  
 
You we’re with her  
But you said  
“I want to date you”  
 
I told you I fear abandonment  
“I’m not going anywhere”  
You said  
 
I know I’m too needy  
But “it’s fine”  
You said  
 
Her  
“She’s so beautiful”  
You said  
 
I choked  
“Nothing will happen”  
You said  
 
I’m on edge  
“I let her nuzzle into my neck”  
You said  
 
You’re smirking  
“I whisper sweet nothings to her”  
You said  
 
I was so scared you’d leave  
“That’s alright”  
I said  
 
When you made me watch  
You kissing her  
I apologized  
 
I felt sickness in my stomach  
Nausea ebbing within  
Tightness and stabbing in my chest  
 
Restless days and nights  
Followed by nightmares  
Of you and her  
 
Because of fate?  
“I don’t want you in my life”  
You said  
 
My cries were met by  
“I’ve severed my emotions”  
That’s what you said  
 
I kept reaching out  
“We think it’s funny”  
That’s what you said  
 
I told you to be with her  
But the truth is  
I wanted you to be with me instead  
 
Tears fall  
“That’s alright, it’s alright”  
I tell myself  
 
You’re in her bed  
And you’re in my head  
That’s alright? (No)  
 
“I like you”  
That’s what you said  
You just like her more  
 
You made me forget my pain
Just to cut a new wound  
Into my scarred body  
 
I know you’re with her tonight  
I’m with someone else  
That’s alright
 
Baby
You were looking so sweet
But you’re bitter and sour

Such cruelty  
From a boy
With chocolate eyes