Forgiveness

Pushed you away again
Needed to run
Compelled to hide

Getting past the overwhelming fear has always been difficult to do  
using my mouth to throw the door in your face

Granting my wish
Leaving me alone inside my head
I've run away from the wrong thing
A terrible mistake
Leaving me alone with my head

Allowing me moments to catch a breath
Breathing was feeling like I was attempting to breathe without lungs
Smothered in fear

Understanding what I did
but your still gone.  
Its something you get appologizes for

Feeling the aftermath of this devastating mistake.  
Praying you'll walk through the door
Please let it be only a minute or two

Need to seek forgiveness
the only way I know how  
Its wrong, I know, but I need you to feel how softened I've become as my
body and yours tremble together

Anxious to convey my apology through actions because communication hasn't been a
Strong point when the fear kicks in  

The right words hushed
Yearning a kiss
Kissing like your walking away
Possibly for good

Needing to hug you like your disappearing
Loose myself in you,
so that way maybe you will have a piece of me when the urge to run away again becomes too strong for me to fight

Selfishly need all of it, so I can hold onto something when I've locked
myself away behind my walls

Desperate to hold close the connection we make when our body's join together
Craving to feel your cock stretching my pussy
Forcing accommodation
Have to feel every thrust  
taste us together, so I can savor it later
curled up alone in hell

Please understand how deeply everything is felt
They shake my very core

Hopefully all my kisses and touching
conveys all my silent words.  
Silently asking forgiveness,
for my mouth that slammed the door

Fucking my mouth with your hard cock.  
Still pleading for forgiveness with my eyes
They stare up at yours

Deploring softly
rubbing my wet slit
Trying to show how much I still want you around

Slowly stop trying to find forgiveness with my mouth, and remove my barriers
Apologizing for my walls  

Offering myself, body and soul,
the only way I know how
Removing each peice of clothing
begging for acceptance with my eyes

Cautiously removing more clothes
Kissing after each removed barrier
Laying me back on the bed and spread my legs
Lightly touch my pussy lips.  

Trembling
Sift moans escaping
Full lips

Placing a few kisses on my
swollen clit before slowly licking up and down
Flicking my swollen bud with your tongue
Making me squirm and moan louder
Begging for more

Slowly sliding a finger inside  
Licking faster
fucking me instead with your finger

Please take me I whimper  
Laughing and continuing to lick my
swollen clit some more,
until release is close
Unable to hold back much longer

When you can feel me start to cum you shove your hard cock into my tightening pussy
Fucking me until anger disappears completely

Accepting everything I have to offer
Coming all over you  
It drips from your righting balls

Continuing to fuck this pretty pink pussy  
Making me squirt over and over
Drenching your cock with cum
Trembling and holding you close
Grinding my hips against you this whole time

Moaning pleasure into your ear
Kissing your neck
Loosing my walls for you
I'm sorry

Your getting closer
grinding faster as you thrust harder
Pulling out at the last 5 seconds
shooting cum over my pulsating clit

Laying down next to me
Pull me into your arms  
Please forgive me I whisper
Its already been done