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Listen to Your Heart
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I find myself awake all night long
Sitting listening to my favourite song
A screen shows me the artist just died
Fuck... I can’t believe how hard I cried
A song about love... beautiful but wicked
I did what she said... but my way was twisted
I lied... tricked... and fuck... I also stole
And in the end it feels like I lost my soul
I did it all without a thought about cost
look at me now... and everything I’ve lost
I hurt so many that called me friend
Ripped myself apart, a heart... unable to mend
I might as well have dug my own fucking grave
Made myself nothing but a worthless deceitful slave
Lying to myself convinced that I did it all for her
Can I remember all the details? No, it’s just a blur
I’m really not the only one who lied
And I really did it all just so I could be by her side
We both call the other so many hurtful names
Should know better than to play stupid games
I know the answer is for me to walk away
But fuck I really do just want to stay
Something I know will never work out
Like a child all I want to do is scream and shout
I never thought I was being abusive
I started by trying just to make her live
selfish... I took advantage of so many
Might as well have stolen every single penny
In the end I told everyone the truth
I knew all along what I would lose
True friends... the ones who at least talk
Give me a chance to explain... despite the shock
A few of them even shared with me a drink
And told me that into darkness... I couldn’t sink
I’m not going to be the one to shed the blame
I won’t even throw a shadow on her name
I’ll stand alone and never look at her again
But she cut me deep, leaving the darkest stain
the truth... we both did things that were wrong
And gods... I still love that fucking song
That Hustla...
Everyday I’m hustlin...
I find myself awake all night long
Sitting listening to my favourite song
A screen shows me the artist just died
Fuck... I can’t believe how hard I cried
A song about love... beautiful but wicked
I did what she said... but my way was twisted
I lied... tricked... and fuck... I also stole
And in the end it feels like I lost my soul
I did it all without a thought about cost
look at me now... and everything I’ve lost
I hurt so many that called me friend
Ripped myself apart, a heart... unable to mend
I might as well have dug my own fucking grave
Made myself nothing but a worthless deceitful slave
Lying to myself convinced that I did it all for her
Can I remember all the details? No, it’s just a blur
I’m really not the only one who lied
And I really did it all just so I could be by her side
We both call the other so many hurtful names
Should know better than to play stupid games
I know the answer is for me to walk away
But fuck I really do just want to stay
Something I know will never work out
Like a child all I want to do is scream and shout
I never thought I was being abusive
I started by trying just to make her live
selfish... I took advantage of so many
Might as well have stolen every single penny
In the end I told everyone the truth
I knew all along what I would lose
True friends... the ones who at least talk
Give me a chance to explain... despite the shock
A few of them even shared with me a drink
And told me that into darkness... I couldn’t sink
I’m not going to be the one to shed the blame
I won’t even throw a shadow on her name
I’ll stand alone and never look at her again
But she cut me deep, leaving the darkest stain
the truth... we both did things that were wrong
And gods... I still love that fucking song
That Hustla...
Everyday I’m hustlin...
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