First Time

In a hot tub with just me and him.
Feeling and touching each other
With water cascading all around
Us. He explored a part of me no
One has seen before. He skimmed
Over my heartbeat as the clutter
And blood was hidden. I drowned
The girl I was for the woman I know
I was becoming. There was no way
To turn back the clock and take it
All back, but I trusted him in that
Moment. I fell harder in between
Those four walls where I could stay
Anonymous and quiet, but bit by bit
My façade was slipping. We laid flat
With him on my chest, a perfect scene.