Revelations

 
 
 
I was one of the boys; Eureka shout;  
It felt so right in thought when I found out.  
 
A tomboy’s what they used to call me by,  
Just as if I were a regular guy.  
 
They never crowded, shouted bi or gay?  
I didn’t need a special pass to stray.  
 
It was much more than what they saw I wore,  
Red flannel plaid, the toney shoes I had.  
 
For on my sunny, youthful face: peach fuzz,  
My boyish chest, that’s all there really was.  
 
I want to say I liked the way  
The girl next door would follow me  
To college dorm and want to sit  
And help me with homework a bit.  
 
Got close to cuddle, she smelled good  
The way I’d dreamt soft girl-skin would.  
 
I got up, she went where I stood  
And touched me there but I bowed out,  
 
And said That’s not what I’m about,  
I don’t have what you need for this.  
 
She pressed and leaned in for a kiss  
And reassured there’s no mistake,  
“I’ll give as much as you can take.”  
 
I closed my eyes to move aside  
As inside my brain opened wide.  
 
I felt the cold air rush the sun,  
I could not end what I’d begun.  
 
I thank you, no, I’m not a toy;  
I won’t do it ‘cause I’m a boy.  
 
Then came a day I hungout with my buds,  
An in-y not an out-y to these bloods.  
 
A sudden rush of hormones gone berserk,  
I felt a jerk, I had to make it work,  
 
And stepped behind a shady tree all coy.  
I wish I had what they have, I’m a boy.      
     
     
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