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Somewhere Love Must Reside
It's frightening what you can do
When you are desperately trying
To hold on to a love unrequited
You'll lie, pester, you'll get angry
You will try hatefulness, pressure
You might even try virtual stalking
You will act completely out of character
You will overstep boundaries contacting
When you have been warned not to
Then they break off all contact options
Which fatally wounds and breaks your heart
But how could they do anything else
She loved another, I lost the battle
I couldn't compete certainly in looks
This old broken down chair bound cripple
Sounds of 'Oh Ruby, don't take your love
To town' flooded my broken mind and soul
The feeling of being unlovable sits heavy
Arches my shoulders pressing down hard
With a razor I cute her initials into my arm
A ragged, pink, uneven self-inflicted tattoo
The razor danced playfully with serious intent
It's the wrist razor pressure length ways, right?
Voices through an Ethernet cable "Just Do It!"
Confirms my mind fuck, unlovable status
I've never experienced real love, not ever!
Now I have no faith or trust left to break
I know that someday soon I will die alone
My greatest torment, my worst nightmare
It floats around the corner, this red fog
It will eventually catch me and consume
When I was thirteen I had never experienced
Love and therefore deemed myself as unlovable
This prediction has sadly come true
Sitting here I think what's the fucking point
Closer to death than life
All it takes is a little push
Shove and trip a human snarl
Oh how they'd celebrate
Clinking champagne glasses
People not yet a wake
I'm still trapped in that love
Never loved guides me blindly
To desire my hole in the ground
When I will finally find peace
'In the arms of the angels'
Maybe just maybe
That is where
Real love
Resides
Published 13th Oct 2019
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13th Oct 2019 9:24pm
You write with such power of candor, your heart like a river pouring onto the page. It's what I call fearless love. Having no care for how it will be received, a pure expression. This is heart rending and relatable. I hear you brother.
17th Oct 2019 5:58pm
some people reading this will say "Oh Not Again" - sympathy seeking. Some people will say "Oh god he is playing the disability card!" - My response 'I am disabled so what's your fuckin point.' Some people will say "He is playing the victim card again!" My response again ' I have been a victim many times so what's your fuckin point!' I write with my heart mind and soul nothing hidden sometimes raw as fuck. This is who I am warts and all. My dailly grind is a mixture of discrimination, abuse, point and laugh, gossip and lies about me online and off. This is only existing and I am the sum of my experience. I write off who I am and what I go through and if people find it repetitive or boring then simply they can all fuck off!
If it wasn't for the really good friends in DU I wouldn't be still here. I include you as one such friend :-)))))))
Sorry for unloading it was in response to a veiled comment by a cunt seen elsewhere.
"Live long and fester" LMAO :-))))))))))
If it wasn't for the really good friends in DU I wouldn't be still here. I include you as one such friend :-)))))))
Sorry for unloading it was in response to a veiled comment by a cunt seen elsewhere.
"Live long and fester" LMAO :-))))))))))
14th Oct 2019 2:43am
Damn you, Davey. You just got me all emotional. I'm holding your heart now, sweet friend. Sending Panda hugs & love. Stay strong & keep hope alive. My prayers are sent to the Angel's for you. 🙏❤
17th Oct 2019 5:41pm
I always accept Hugs, especially Panda Hugs, thank you always for your support. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and when a highland warrior sees that light nobody sould try to get in the way.
As for hope in some regards, I have given up hope, but I still have dreams, unfortunately they are dreams for one :-)
As for hope in some regards, I have given up hope, but I still have dreams, unfortunately they are dreams for one :-)
20th Oct 2019 4:23am
You're most definitely a warrior
....a damn warrior never gives up hope either, buddy;)🍃❤
....a damn warrior never gives up hope either, buddy;)🍃❤
15th Oct 2019 6:17am
16th Oct 2019 6:03am
I wish you didn't relate to this, I am sorry if I touched a nerve :-(
thank you :-))))
thank you :-))))
15th Oct 2019 10:34pm
magnificent poem. i love the way your words colide with eachother into a rythematic puzzle that only confuses those who dont understand. You will find love. keep going and i want to say that this poem was amazing. :3
16th Oct 2019 6:02am
thank you so much for your understanding and appreciation
it means a lot :-))))))))))))))))))))))))
it means a lot :-))))))))))))))))))))))))
Anonymous
16th Oct 2019 1:46am
Oh David.......you are worth to be luved.......I’m sorry that soul didn’t realize who you truly are inside.......most souls don’t stay long enough to ever know the most valuable part of a soul......their heart......yours is golden.......purple luv & hugs xo :)
16th Oct 2019 6:01am
