chasms

 
hate me for who I am
not what I'm not
I was a beautiful once
I no longer shine

I'm gentle but sinister
an equal measure of both
duality has nothing on me
I'm multilayered revealing truth
hidden among the lies

I'm not consciously dishonest
my mind plays tricks on me
it believes what it wants

I'm not thin
I wish I was
society says I should be
I come from a long line--
of thick German women
heredity can't be wrong
so love me as I am

I'm light and dark
I believe in creation
I don't believe in mistakes
there must be a method to the madness

I'm bipolar
I don't want to be normal today--
when depression hits I might change my mind
for now I'm content to be different

I reach across the great divide
bridging the chasm between people
I walk on many worlds
I hope to reach a few with my heart

I'm understanding
I don't see in black and white
there are many shades of truth
may I continue to learn

zen