What's Going through My Mind

As the morning comes to an awakening I clear my head only to see there is nothing there.
My Morning is empty my day has started without a simple positive inspiration.
My mind drifts into the negative, because there is no signs of a positive.
Does not calling make it easier to walk away knowing that she doesn’t even have to say Goodbye
Or is she sitting there as I fighting the desire to say “I Love You” through text
The negative begins to take over the light filling any space with darkness
The hope slowly disappears as it is replaced with only fear.

I try to  be strong but my soul has already been given away to one who I not ever hear from again.
I am merely an empty shell waiting for Love to fill me back up.
Is she sitting there thinking about me or is it easier not talking to me, because she can drift in the distractions
She can turn her attention to others and I can slowly begin to disappear.
These are my fears, as I sit and wait biting my lips as to not call and speak
Clinching my fist to not to type or text

I stare at my phone waiting to hear the ring of a text coming through or a call from you
Nothing at all could this mean she has made up her mind
You know out of sight out of mind
In this case out of ear, eyes and sight out of her life.

This is what goes through the mind of a person who is so in love that has pledged his soul to love and protect the one he had one time betrayed.
A person who has nothing and is nothing without her but with her has everything and is everything.
A person who choose to remain loyal and true, although he has been ridiculed.

No one can understand how a person so far away can control the heart and soul of a Man in LA
I say it’s love true love that has enslaved me to this pain of sitting here waiting for my Kween to choose me.