Just a little sad today

If I wasn’t so afraid  
I would find a way  
To tell you
How I still sink with doubt  
In this dreary world
 
I wonder  
If my name lingers  
Even a wisp of of thought  
In your crowded mind

I loved loving you  
I loved your darkness
And the plumpness of your  
Bottom lip.  
 
In the wake of your absence
I am an ocean  
Of vulnerability  
And in the hazardous blue
I am weak because of you  
Fighting to reach the surface
 
I fear change
But you left anyway
And now I sit in the parking lot
Staring at the empty seat in my car
 
It’s quiet here
A silent white
With little day and uncomfortable night