Prisoner in my own thoughts

 

This is not easy for me to say,
when things get difficult
I just shut down and
shut everyone out.
when I'm feeling not like myself or
I'm getting out of my comfort zone I just completely shut down so I can deal with it by myself sometime I cant even escape my own thoughts.
 all my life always held my emotions in and suppressed them as much as I could,until I can't no longer suppress them any longer.
 I will  just explode  at anyone who comes my way, no one could ever  understand these thoughts that go through my head the feelings I held in for so long.
I'm trying so hard not to faded away in my thoughts and feelings.
 over here doubting myself and
being hard on myself and for what?
 I need peace in my mind to  
Get rid of all these feelings that no one know I hide so very well.
So I can heal and be a better me
So I will not be a prisoner in my own self
It's time to break free.

©purplebutterfly