Love Roulette

Love
Not the game of roulette I wanted to play
But I knew the risks
And the more I learned of love
The harder it became
And every time I ignored love
The more it wanted to make me it’s slave
It’s too hard to explain
But the more I tried not to pursue it
The crazier it became
It was incredibly hard for me to stay
Enduring that red hot scorching
And all those lies it would say
Just a tortuous scalding to have me tamed
When all I wanted to do is find a way to escape
But love keep me in its pits of hell
And into its flames I fell
Being loves prisoner
Was ultimately the worst kind of pain
Because every time that I held love in my hands
The more it felt strange
Love felt like it had no remorse
Nor an ounce of guilt rushing through its veins
Not once did it say it was sorry
Or shed a single tear of shame
Only fingers pointed at the one it wanted to blame
So how could I ever look at love the same way again
I had serious doubts
But my thoughts would eventually pull me back
Because how could things of gotten any worse
But they did
And we cursed each other to the bitter-end
Using never heard before words #%!&
Love was up to its old tricks again
It was way off course
And every kiss that came afterwards
Would never taste the same
Love turned bittersweet and incredibly sour
Love just wasted away
As misery grew stronger by the hour
And it got louder
Every day acting more like a total fuck’n bitch
In a battle for control and power
We acted like vindictive fools
And looking back now I realize
We were both going to lose
As the cheap shots came one right after another
Love pitched it’s curve balls Even got into-a-grove
But seldom did I ever miss
I was way too calm and cool
Sending love straight over the fence
I hit home-runs
But I wasn’t being a gentleman
Painting that bullseye right on it’s face
Haha not really a mistake
I was on defense
But hey, love was playing its own petty little games
Totally in love with itself and preaching it’s hate
I have the proof on tape
But I honestly don’t think love was trying to kill me
Even though those wild accusation
Weren’t actually that insane
Trust me, lol
But no, love would have never missed
It definitely had the motive and opportunity
To do me in
But love just wanted to kick my ass around a bit
Trying to piss me off so it could laugh
Kick me in the balls and call me a stupid dick
But I never gave up, nor did I quit
It was love who couldn’t last
And now I’m the only one here who’s laughing .. shit
I told love “get out, if you don’t want more of this
And love had very thin skin
So it just up and walked away
And now I’m just sitting here looking pretty
Like money in the bank
It’s horrible this game of love
It always taken two to play