I’m No Circus Clown

I’m not a slave, you’re not my master
I can’t be tamed, I can’t be captured
I know the difference, between real and phony
Why I don’t play those silly love games
Unless it’s matrimony

I can’t be bought, I can’t be sold
For no amount of money
So put away your china
Sliver spoons, and golden platter
Cuz you already know I ain’t no dummy
If you think my hearts in tatters
Then you don’t know me
Warning signs they always matter

I’m a slugger standing in his own field of dreams
A strikeout artist, a home run batter
They ain’t gotta clue
Because it ain’t the truth that their after
So if you’re waiting for some comic relief
Between the chitter-chatter
Don’t hold your breath
They’ll be plenty of tears but no more laughter

Because I’m no circus clown, ain’t nobody’s fool
You see in my world I’m not the court jester
I’m the king
But I’d always treat you good
Like a decent human being
But how could I love you passionately
Without matching rings
Or before the churches pastor
Otherwise it wouldn’t mean a thing
Forever after

So if you were to look me in the eyes
You’d see I’m a disaster
A heart that’s homeless being so far away from you
I know what I’m running away from
And exactly what I’m after
But I can’t chase the truth around forever
So tell me that you never loved me
And I’ll wreck even faster

You shouldn’t watch while I fall on the knife
I guess I get what I deserve
And it serves me right
So do yourself a favor
Tell me to go kick some rocks
Because I don’t think it’s even possible
Giving you everything that you want
The odds are astronomical
You being a crazy little fox

She loves me, she loves me not
I’ve picked all day countless flowers
And still there’s no end in sight
Lilac after lilac
Hour after hour .. after hour
I’ve ventured into the vast unknown
And never found my way back
Under my own powers

Do you want me to stay
While the nights still young
Ok I’ll stay if you think it feels right
And if there’s even the slightest doubt
I’ll swallow my pride and spit
you out after
So go ahead and speak your peace
Wether it be sweet or sour
Just don’t bite your tongue
If you chose to devour

Because come tomorrow I’ll be moving on
I’m looking for answers, and right now I have none
I really hate these long goodbyes
But I’m going to miss you, I miss you already, I really do
But I’ll always think of you, and remember you were the one

There’s no sense in me lying
Here’s the facts
You’re such a beautiful believer
Unfortunately I’m not a mind reader
And I’m way to unholy in trying
How could I ever make your dreams come true
In this drama theater
So there’s nothing good left for me to say
Cuz I’m slowly dying
My hearts always been a constant bleeder
And who in their right mind needs that in their life
Mine either