the hidden pages

  
broken trust... love built on lies
you told your share but I didn't want to let go  
I knew the truth...of you  
   
I told lies of my own to keep my heart happy  
now here we are twenty years later  
our great castle of omission is coming crashing down    
it's your turn now...you refuse to leave me  
I know it's time to get out before the darkness crushes us  
   
looking back I can see how things led to this  
but while I was looking the other way
resentment was growing  
the life choked out of our marriage  
   
you always had an eye for the ladies  
infidelity your weakness  
your ego wanted younger and prettier  
now you're a man of age  
you want to hide in my womanhood  
   
the tables have turned but it isn't for revenge  
my body betrays me with a hunger you can't keep up with  
   
twilight decorates my guilt  
little fractured thoughts...break me  
I still love you but realize it's unfair to lie to you  
   
so I will go my own way  
with hopes you never discover the lies I've hidden  
the truth of things would break you bitterly  
in the end I want nothing to do with that